Soul Tears and Hope | Zoe Clark-Coates

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Zoe and husband Andy have walked a long and painful road, suffering the devastating loss of five babies, but they have found hope and healing along the way. Zoe decided to use her counselling training and twenty years of experience in the business and charity sectors to improve support for anyone who suffers child loss. The Mariposa Trust (widely known by its primary support division ‘Saying Goodbye), has become a leading support charity, reaching over 50,000 people each week worldwide. Her profound and moving journey will resonate with the millions who have experienced baby loss, or know someone who has.

Zoe has written five highly acclaimed books, including 'Saying Goodbye' and hosts a TV talk show called 'Soul Tears' as well as appearing on BBC and ITV. Find her on Instagram at @Zoeadelle

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Released on 20 Jul 2023

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        • vendor/laravel/framework/src/Illuminate/Filesystem/Filesystem.php:110
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      • ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier680μsselect * from `brand_pages` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = 118 and `brand_pages`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `brand_pages`.`deleted_at` is null
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        • app/Models/Traits/ContentFamilyTrait.php:18
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        • vendor/laravel/framework/src/Illuminate/Filesystem/Filesystem.php:110
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      • ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier700μsselect * from `audio_series` where `audio_series`.`brand_id` = 118 and `audio_series`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `audio_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `audio_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `audio_series`.`deleted_at` is null
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