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Lucy Cavell is a senior trauma-informed practitioner consultant working for Barnardo's and is also an independent consultant. She joined Mal Pope to tell her story of redemption and how she's overcome her own trauma to help others in similar situations.
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Released on 11 Jan 2024
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