The Ex-atheist & the Ex-Christian – Holly Ordway & Vanessa James

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Holly Ordway is Professor of English and Director of the M.A. in Apologetics at Houston Baptist University. She was a happy atheist, but was converted to Christianity through apologetics and her love of literature. Vanessa James is a musician who was a committed Christian until a few years ago when she lost her faith and became an atheist.

Both stories don’t quite finish there however, as you’ll hear in this programme as they dialogue on the pros and cons of atheism, Christianity and our search for meaning, beauty and truth.

For Holly Ordway http://www.hollywordway.com

Read Vanessa James’ ‘Christian Detox’ blogs at http://www.theallowed.com/

Order Unbelievable? The Conference 2016 DVD/MP3CD http://www.premier.org.uk/Shop

For more faith debates visit http://www.premierchristianradio.com/Shows/Saturday/Unbelievable

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Released on 8 Jul 2016

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#1	2025-06-24 14:18:28	GET	/unbelievable/podcasts/episodes/the-ex-atheist-amp-the-ex-christian-holly-ordway-amp-vanessa-james	64 42 31 1

The Ex-atheist & the Ex-Christian – Holly Ordway & Vanessa James

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