Lex Renick - the pastor who turned her back on a transgender identity

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Lex Renick has lived many different lives and she's still only 27-years-old.

When she was still in middle school she began to experience gender dysphoria going on to identify as a transgender man taking testosterone and even having a double mastectomy.

She grew up in a Christian household in California but it was not a happy home. She experienced emotional and sexual trauma which, in her own words, made it difficult to have a relationship with God.

After a friend at school invited her to church she reaffirming her faith and built a relationship with her mother in the last years of her life.

But her journey in faith accelerated when she met her husband - himself a gay man - and got married. After 14 years living as a man she went back to being a female and how has a daughter and is pregnant with her second child. She is also a pastor.

She talks through her incredible story of faith, rejection and life in the army with Deputy Editor of Woman Alive magazine Jemimah Wright on this week's Profile.

Please note, this podcast contains graphic descriptions of the female body and adult themes and may not be suitable to listen to around children.

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Released on 29 Nov 2024

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        • vendor/laravel/framework/src/Illuminate/Filesystem/Filesystem.php:110
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