Facing the Canon: Rachel Mackenzie

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This week on Facing the Canon, J.John speaks with Rachel Mackenzie, an inspirational woman who, having had two abortions herself, is now supporting others who have had similar experiences. Rachel describes her experiences of abuse, abortion and grief, and explains how she discovered hope, healing and forgiveness through the work of Rachel's Vineyard.

Released on 1 Jun 2022

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