'I Wanted to Kill Myself': Demon-Possessed Woman Dropped Herself Out of a Two-Story Window – but That's Hardly the End of Her Wild Story

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Amy Stamatis was a healthy nurse, wife and mother – until one day something bizarre unfolded. "I told my husband I think I’m having a nervous breakdown," she told The Playing With Fire Podcast.
But as the days wore on, she realized something far more diabolical was unfolding. Overtaken by sudden suicidal inclinations, Amy dropped herself out of a two-story window and nearly died. But it was a stranger who, under a prompting from God, helped heal her.
This is Amy's story.
For more on this topic, be sure to read Billy Hallowell's book, "Playing with Fire: A Modern Investigation into Demons, Exorcism, and Ghosts:" https://www.amazon.com/Playing-Fire-Modern-Investigation-Exorcism/dp/0785234500/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=

Released on 28 Oct 2021

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