Christmas Q&A (N334)

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In this special seasonal episode, your Nomad hosts come together for a Q&A session filled with festive cheer and thoughtful reflections. As a heartfelt thank-you to our amazing supporters—whose generosity has made this year’s Nomadic journey possible—we’re diving into their most pressing (and quirky) questions. While our answers may not always be the most accurate or helpful, they’ll hopefully spark some meaningful conversations and perhaps a few laughs along the way. So join us as we wrestle with profound and playful questions alike, such as: •    “Has the loss of a loved one after your deconstruction brought back old fears about the afterlife?” •    “What’s the one thing you struggle most to let go of from your ‘earnest evangelical days’?” •    “If you could go back to when you were 20, what advice would you give yourself?” •    “You’ve been made Archbishop of Canterbury for a day. You can make all churches in the UK do three things—what are they?” Pour yourself a festive drink, get comfortable, and join us for an episode brimming with honesty, humour, and gratitude for the community that makes this journey so special. Books, quotes, links → The creation of Nomad's thoughtful, wonderfully ad-free content is entirely funded by our equally thoughtful, wonderful listeners. Supporting us gives access to Nomad's online communities through the Beloved Listener Lounge, Enneagram Lounge and Nomad Book Club - as well as bonus content like Nomad Contemplations, Therapeutic Reflections and Nomad Revisited. If you'd like to join our lovely supporters head to our Patreon Page to donate and you may even be rewarded with a pen or Beloved Listener mug! If you're hoping to connect with others who are more local, you can also take a look at our Listener Map or join our Nomad Gathering Facebook page. Additionally, we share listener's stories on our blog, all with the hope of facilitating understanding, connection and supportive relationships.

Released on 10 Dec 2024

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