Suffering: Mystery and presence, the lamb slain from the foundation of the world, rediscovering lament and the Gethsemane prayer

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We’re bringing you a classic episode of Matters of Life and Death from the archive today, all about suffering. The problem of suffering has been one of the most intractable and painful theological debates for centuries. But is it perhaps not a problem to be solved, but a deeper mystery to be journeyed through? How does knowing Jesus’s death and resurrection are not simply a response to pain but God’s Plan A from the start change things? We also think through some faithful Christian responses to evil and loss. How can the church reintegrate the deeply Biblical tradition of lament into its corporate and individual life, picking up on the psalms and ultimately Jesus on the cross?

- Subscribe to the Matters of Life and Death podcast: https://pod.link/1509923173
- If you want to go deeper into some of the topics we discuss, visit John's website: http://www.johnwyatt.com
- For more resources to help you explore faith and the big questions, visit: http://www.premierunbelievable.com

Released on 2 Aug 2023

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier710μs

select * from `article_series` where `article_series`.`brand_id` = 85 and `article_series`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `article_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `article_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `article_series`.`deleted_at` is null

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier800μs

select * from `podcasts` where `podcasts`.`brand_id` = 85 and `podcasts`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `podcasts`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `podcasts`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `podcasts`.`deleted_at` is null

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Podcast.php#137premier430μsselect * from `brands` where `brands`.`id` = 85 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null limit 1

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier580μs

select * from `brand_pages` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = 85 and `brand_pages`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `brand_pages`.`deleted_at` is null

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier610μs

select * from `audio_series` where `audio_series`.`brand_id` = 85 and `audio_series`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `audio_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `audio_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `audio_series`.`deleted_at` is null

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier560μs

select * from `article_series` where `article_series`.`brand_id` = 85 and `article_series`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `article_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `article_series`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `article_series`.`deleted_at` is null

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier650μs

select * from `podcasts` where `podcasts`.`brand_id` = 85 and `podcasts`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `podcasts`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `podcasts`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `podcasts`.`deleted_at` is null

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Setting.php#20premier330μsselect * from `settings` where `setting_key` = 'web_donation_link' limit 1

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App\Models\Brand: 7Brand.php#?
App\Models\Podcast: 7Podcast.php#?
App\Models\Setting: 6Setting.php#?
App\Models\PodcastEpisode: 5PodcastEpisode.php#?

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#1	2025-06-21 21:52:33	GET	/matters-of-life-and-death/podcasts/episodes/suffering-mystery-and-presence-the-lamb-slain-from-the-foundation-of-the-world-rediscovering-lament-and-the-gethsemane-prayer	64 40 25 1

Suffering: Mystery and presence, the lamb slain from the foundation of the world, rediscovering lament and the Gethsemane prayer

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