Baby loss 1: Elsie’s story, one in five pregnancies, names missing from the family tree, and the power of ultrasound

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We have just finished Baby Loss Awareness Week here in the UK. While the event is not hugely well known, it is indicative of an enormous cultural shift in recent decades around how society talks about miscarriage and stillbirth. Today, the messaging is much more compassionate and empathetic, acknowledging the reality of the baby who has died and the grief their parents will be feeling. What has prompted this sea change in thought? What do we now know about how losing a baby before birth affects both mothers and fathers? And how can Christians welcome this shift in emphasis and language, and bring it into the church context as well?

- Find out more about Baby Loss Awareness Week, including lots of first-hand true stories from women, here: https://babyloss-awareness.org/
- You can read the government’s Pregnancy Loss Review here: https://assets.publishing.service.gov.uk/government/uploads/system/uploads/attachment_data/file/1172417/Pregnancy-Loss-Review-web-accessible.pdf

- Subscribe to the Matters of Life and Death podcast: https://pod.link/1509923173
- If you want to go deeper into some of the topics we discuss, visit John's website: http://www.johnwyatt.com
- For more resources to help you explore faith and the big questions, visit: http://www.premierunbelievable.com

Released on 18 Oct 2023

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier1.01ms

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier930μs

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier880μs

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Podcast.php#137premier610μsselect * from `brands` where `brands`.`id` = 85 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null limit 1

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier780μs

select * from `brand_pages` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = 85 and `brand_pages`.`brand_id` is not null and ((not exists (select * from `brands` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null)) or (exists (select * from `brands` where `brand_pages`.`brand_id` = `brands`.`id` and `is_active` = 1 and `brands`.`deleted_at` is null))) and `is_active` = 1 and `brand_pages`.`deleted_at` is null

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier680μs

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier650μs

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ContentFamilyTrait.php#18premier830μs

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Setting.php#20premier490μsselect * from `settings` where `setting_key` = 'web_donation_link' limit 1

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