#151 Holly Ordway: Trauma, Catholicism and romantic love

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Dr Holly Ordway, author of Tolkien’s Faith, shares some of the traumatic events in JRR Tolkien's life, such as the death of his parents during his childhood, his forbidden romantic love and his experience of the Great War. What would it have been like to convert to Catholicism? How did his guardian Fr Francis impact Tolkien's faith?

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#151 Holly Ordway: Trauma, Catholicism and romantic love

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